Tuesday Thoughts

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May has arrived and that means that summer has arrived in Ireland but whilst the weekend gave us a glimpse of balmy warm weather one day, the next we found ourselves caught in a freezing cold hail stone shower. As strange as it may sound, the crazy Irish weather got me thinking about how things change, in a second, and without warning.

When I first set up my blog back in January, I knew this year was going to be an interesting one. While it was going to be exciting, and fun, full of travel and adventures, it was also going to be challenging, and hard, due to some changes I’m going through. You’ll have heard me talk about this already if you’ve been reading my blog for a while, and apologies if I’m boring you, but you know, sometimes you just need to talk it out!

Given the worrier that I am, I’ve always worried about change, what it means for me, how I will cope, how I will come out the other side. And of course I’ve always coped, I’ve always come out the other side, and I’ve almost always been better off because of it. So why am I always so resistant?

Does anyone else go through this? It may be why I challenged myself in my New Year’s resolutions not to sweat the small stuff so much, and I’m trying, let me tell you I’m trying. But sometimes you just want to scream out the stress and wish you could wake yourself up from a situation so that things could go back to being ‘normal’ again. But maybe the only normalcy in life is change…

I’m talking in riddles again I know, forgive me and my tendancy to do that. While I share so much of my life and thoughts in my blog, somethings I just can’t talk about things in as much detail as I would like. Not because I don’t want to, but more for self-preservation really.

But the subject really isn’t the issue here, it’s the change. And I don’t know why it always surprises me. What’s that famous quote again; the only certainty in life is that nothing is certain?

Well that’s definitely true about the weather anyway.

Sorcha x

 

Goodbye January


It’s Friday, but it’s no ordinary Friday, it’s the last Friday in January, and for me, it also represents a few other lasts. Because of this, I’ve been reflecting on the past few weeks and how you never know what’s around the corner…

A few weeks back I wrote a short piece about embracing change. That day, I had been given some news that completely took me by surprise. It threw me, it unnerved me, and most of all, it forced me to channel a lot of inner positivity in order to not let it overwhelm me. I coped better than I previously would have in times of change, and looking back now, I’m quite proud of the fact that I didn’t let it consume my every waking thought.

Fast forward three weeks and that change really wasn’t all that bad. Things worked out how they always manage to do, and now that I’m out the other side, I can rationally see how worrying wouldn’t have changed a thing, and certainly wouldn’t have done me any good. I didn’t worry (too much) and turns out I didn’t need to either.

The funniest part is, this change has actually led to a potentially even bigger, scarier change which could bring a lot of uncertainty with it. But I suppose you just have to believe that things happen for a reason. When one door closes, another opens and all that…

This is all very cryptic I’m aware, and it’s not that I don’t want to share the specifics, but more that I want to highlight how things happen (or don’t), and there’s really nothing we can do about it. We can worry, stress, laugh, cry, analyse, whatever – but it won’t change what’s meant to be.

So as I say goodbye to January and look forward to the year ahead, I’ve decided to pour myself a tall glass of wine, sit back and let it all unfold as it should.

I know what I want to achieve this year, and if there are some bumps along the way then so be it. I may have a mini meltdown or two, but either way it’s sure to be an interesting ride.

In the words of one of my favourite songs, ‘I’m on my way. I don’t know where I’m going, but I’m on my way…’

So come on February, I’m ready for you…

Sorcha x

Embracing Change

We’re brought up knowing that the one certainty in life, is that nothing is certain. If we know it, and understand it, then why is it so difficult when change comes our way?

Some change is good, amazing in fact. It makes our lives interesting and fun and unpredictable. But the kind of change that comes out of nowhere and slaps you in the face? That’s the change I’m taking issue with today!

People have varying ways of coping with slap-in-the-face change, some better than others of course. But it’s confession time. I am not one of those people. I one of the ones who’s mouth goes dry, nerves build up in my gut and I hover for days between dizziness and nausea depending on the extremity of the change. It all sounds very dramatic I know.

Today I found out something is changing, just as I had arrived at a happy, comfortable, easy, breezy place with it. It’s a new year and it’s all about change I get that – I’ve been talking nothing but change for the past few days and now it’s come back to bite me in the ass! Don’t you just hate when that happens?

A 2015 version of me would have had a complete panic about it, but in the spirit of embracing positivity this year, I’m going to need to embrace the change also. Damn. What was it Lemony Snicket said – if we wait until we’re ready, we’ll be waiting for the rest of our lives? I best get on with it so…

Rant over. I feel better. Thanks for listening! 🙂

I think it’s time to go meditate now. Ommmm…

Sorcha x